RAW THOUGHT...THE FEARS OF OUR GUILT

There's nothing as fearful as living in the fears of your guilt; Many a time life presents us with a staircase - one that's very steep yet very attractive to climb. The kind of steps you would want to take because of the titillating sensory nerves it triggers in your feet. As desirable and sinful as the wold is, we enjoy climbing and climbing; even in the heat of our sweat. At that moment, life becomes as meaningless as pleasure itself...But the truth is that what is that pleasurable may not have a pleasant destination. The Bible calls it "the end thereof". The missing link is always the destination that we never wait a second to think of. Then we arrive, look down and see how far we have climbed, how distant we are from the foot of the staircase. Obviously what sets in is fear; the fainthearted can't help but dazzle in their vertigo. Then you miss your thoughts. Then you realise how foolish you have been - climbing that high  without having to reason how away you were getting from the ground. You satisfied the pleasurable desires of your feet at the detriment of your head and heart. Then you want to jump down because climbing down the staircase has become scary..why? Its that huge crack that struck through the staircase.. The huge crack you failed to pay attention to when you were climbing..Then you feel like shouting for your help but your guilt is not allowing you. You are fearfully guilty, yet you would have to live in the fear of your guilt.. Its simple, it happens all the time: sleeping with your master's wife and fearing being caught by your master, sleeping with too many prostitutes and fearing you now have HIV after being struck down by some chronic illness, recording a sex scene and suspecting that it's been intercepted by your Sunday school teacher, beating your pregnant wife to the point of a miscarriage and risking not having any baby thereafter...These are fears we live in everyday of our lives, yet they are fears we keep getting ourselves into.. Then when we are enveloped by our guilt, we curse the devil, we panic, pretend to know God better just to benefit from his mercies..The fact of the matter is assess your destinations, measure the consequences before you jump unto the pleasures of this world. It doesn't mean you shouldn't take risks.. Life itself is a risk.